A Day In The Life...

Good-bye......

2010-06-28T18:15:00.000-07:00

what does that word really mean?

I think it means something different for everyone. For some it means the end of something and for others it means the beginning of something. I never really gave the word much thought until these last few months.....and I have learned what that words means for me(at least I think I have).

For me it means the beginning of something new. Yes it also meant I had to leave behind everything I have known but I really think it was time. It is hard to put into words what I am talking about but I will try. See I think I had gotten too comfortable.....comfortable in my life, in my job, in my friendships, with my family. I know some reading this may not understand and this may even hurt their feeling but in no way is that my intention. I believe there comes a point in every ones life where you have to ask yourself, 'what am I doing and am I happy'. To be honest I wasn't happy, I can't explain why, I just know that I wasn't.....but no moving was not a decision that Tom and I came to easily it was the hardest decision we have ever had to make but we both knew it was something that we had to do. Do I think everything will magically be fixed because we live in a different state.....NO.....that would be very naive of me....but I believe it is a start....and we all need a fresh start from time to time.

Let me clarify something....I love all of my family and friends very much and I am going to miss them all more then I can ever put into words and I can never replace the friendship that I left in Florida and I would never even try. But I know my true friends...the ones closest to me will understand and still love me. And I just say friends cause I know my family will always understand and be there for me.

I hope all of this rambling makes sense to someone because I am not sure it does to me......

Love you guys!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WORDS.....

2010-06-14T09:48:00.000-07:00

have you ever really stopped and thought about them? We use them every single day without ever realizing it both spoken and unspoken. Sometimes an unspoken word it the one that is heard louder then the spoken one.

-How are you using your "spoken" words in your day to day life?

-Are you choosing to use them for good or bad?

- Are you aware of your words or do they just "happen"?

-Do you stop and think about how your words will affect those around you?

-Do you choose to add your "words" to a situation that you do not know much about or that you only know about from a third party?

-Do you stop to find out details before you add your "words" to a conversation?

-Are you using your words as a weapon to right some wrong weather real or imagined?

-How are you using your "unspoken" words in you day to day life?

-How do you treat that person that you have "heard" something about?

-Are you ignoring that "new" person because of the way they look?

-Are you telling your kids that you love them by more then your words but with your actions?

-Are you there to support the ones you love in every situation rather you "agree" with it or not?

I have been thinking alot lately about how our words are used to either speak life or death...blessing or curse to a situation. I try everyday to use my words as a hope to someone....not to put down. I know I do not always measure up the way I should but I am trying....and I have to admit some days I don't "try" as hard as I should.

I will leave you with this...the next time you feel it is your "right" to use your words to correct, speak your mind, or undermine someone stop and think......how would I feel if these same words were spoken to me. And the next time you choose to treat someone differently because you think you "know" what is going on stop and ask that person what is going on...you may be surprised how much you DON'T know about a situation.

This one is for you honey....

2010-04-21T09:36:00.000-07:00

Today was....

2010-04-19T12:55:00.000-07:00

a pretty hard day. Its was the first day of my new normal, the first day back to school and work without Tom here. I tried to put on a brave face but it was hard. I talked to him on Face Book a couple of times and on the phone but it was not the same.

Spring Break was fun but I wonder if it was the best idea. Tom and I said our good-byes on the Wednesday before he had to be at work and that was tough but then I had to tell him good-bye again and this time it felt even worse. I know I will get through this and that it is just for a season but it is tough.

Now I have to get in the frame of mind of packing and going through things and getting rid of things. Ashlee and Britney started yesterday, they cleaned out their closet and got 2 big boxes of things to give away (I am just happy that they cleaned their closet out, I don't think they have ever done that before...lol).

When I am afraid, I will trust in you

Psalm 56:3

I know....

2010-04-14T17:36:00.000-07:00

change is never easy…if it was it would not be a big deal…right.

This is probably one of the hardest weeks of my life yet one of the most exciting…does that makes sense. Me and the kids are in Tennessee on Spring Break and we are having so much fun, driving around taking pictures and just having a good time but this is also my last week with Tom for 2 ½ months.

For those of you who may not know yet let me explain…we are moving to Tennessee in June. Tom got a job and started working last Thursday so he has already moved, he is staying with his mom until June which is when the kids and I are moving. Why June you may be wondering….we want Kirsti to graduate from Chamberlain and we want the other two to finish this school year so that is why we are waiting until then.

I am not looking forward to leaving this Saturday, this will be only the second time we have been apart for a long period of time. The first time of course was when Tom was in the Marines and he was sent overseas for 6 months, thank God this time will only be for 2 ½ months but that is still a long time. The 12 hour drive home is going to be hell but I am going to have to try and keep it together for the kids. They are taking it hard too but I don’t think it is really going to hit them until we start heading back to Florida and Tom has to stay.

We both really feel that this is the next step that God has for our family but we never realized how hard it was going to be. So I am asking for you to pray for me and my family…this couple of months is going to be hard but it will all be worth it in the end.

Help me to remember...

2010-03-31T08:43:00.000-07:00

I was sure by now
God you would have reached down
And wiped our tears away
Stepped in and saved the day
But once again, I say “Amen”, and it’s still raining

As the thunder rolls
I barely hear Your whisper through the rain
“I’m with you”
And as You mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away

I’ll praise You in this storm
And I will life my hands
For You are who You are
No matter where I am
Every tear I’ve cried
You hold in Your hand
You never left my side
And though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm

I remember when
I stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry
You raised me up again
My strength is almost gone
How can I carry on
If I can’t find You

As the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain
“I’m with you”
And as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away

I lift my eyes unto the hills
Where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord
The Maker of Heaven and Earth

*Lord give me the faith to TRUST you....no matter what*

Another one of my favorite songs....

2010-03-24T21:30:00.000-07:00

Don’t know how it is You looked at me
And saw the person that I could be
Awakening my heart
Breaking through the dark
Suddenly Your grace

Like sunlight burning at midnight
Making my life something so
Beautiful, beautiful
Mercy reaching to save me
All that I need
You are so
Beautiful, beautiful

Now there’s a joy inside I can’t contain
But even perfect days can end in rain
And though it’s pouring down
I see You through the clouds
Shining on my face

I have come undone
But I have just begun
Changing by Your grace

*Thank you God for seeing the true me... no matter what*

What Faith Can Do......

2010-03-22T07:52:00.000-07:00

Everybody falls sometimes
Gotta find the strength to rise
From the ashes and make a new beginning
Anyone can feel the ache
You think it’s more than you can take
But you are stronger, stronger than you know
Don’t you give up now
The sun will soon be shining
You gotta face the clouds
To find the silver lining

I’ve seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn’t ever end
Even when the sky is falling
And I’ve seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That’s what faith can do

It doesn’t matter what you’ve heard
Impossible is not a word
It’s just a reason for someone not to try
Everybody’s scared to death
When they decide to take that step
Out on the water
It’ll be alright
Life is so much more
Than what your eyes are seeing
You will find your way
If you keep believing

I’ve seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn’t ever end
Even when the sky is falling
And I’ve seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That’s what faith can do

I love love love this song....it speaks so loudly to me right now

Saying good-bye.....

2010-03-15T12:26:00.000-07:00

is never easy but I have learned that it is a part of life.

We had a farewell reception for our Children's Pastor and his family yesterday but they were so much more then just our Children's Pastor.

I remember the first time I meet his wife (Misty), it was at our Princess Luncheon. She looked so nervous but I knew after talking to her just once that we were going to be good friends. Little did I know at the time that I would end up babysitting their daughter, Cece. It was all God, I was quiting my job and they were having a problem with the childcare so I stepped in to help. During that time I really got close to not only the kids but to Misty and Trinity and we had a blast. I loved spending time with them and our families got very close. We watched each others kids grow, Pastor T saw Ashlee and Britney move from children's church to youth and he and Misty both invested so much in their lives, and I truly believe that they are the young ladies of God today because of the things they learned in children's church.

Misty and Trinity you both will be GREATLY missed!!!!!!!! We love you and you will always have a special place in our hearts.

And T thanks for all the awesome staff lunches....they won't be the same without you!!!!!!

Another week....

2010-03-07T19:57:00.001-08:00

has come and gone. Nothing too exciting going on here, same stuff just a different day.

Went to a Women's Conference this weekend with the Life Coaching Ladies and had a blast...as always. I love spending time with these ladies, they have enriched my life so much and I will forever be grateful to them for that.

Life at home is normal. Kirsti got her first job and she is loving it, well she is actually loving the paychecks...lol. Everyone is doing good in school, FCATS are this week so the girls are a little stressed about that but they always do really well on them so I am not sure why they stress so bad but they do. Austin is working on finishing his school and should be able to take his test for his diploma is a little while.

Tom's work is going good. Slow from time to time but it is picking up some. Him and Austin have a couple of jobs lined up and are working on getting more accounts, so we will see.

That is how life has been going in our world for the last week or so....not too exciting but its life!!!!!!!!!!

WHY.....

2010-03-04T10:36:00.000-08:00

* is it soooo hard for some people to believe that other people can change?

* is it soooo wrong to want something more for your life?

* is it soooo hard for people to let go of the past?

* is it soooo hard for people to be happy for others?

* is it soooo wrong to want to move on with your life?

* is it soooo wrong to want to be treated with respect?

These are just a few question I have running around in my head right now. I wish people could let things go and learn to live their own lives and not be so concerned about what others are doing with their lives!!!!!!!

Tennessee....

2010-02-20T16:34:00.000-08:00

is where I am at right now. We had to make a trip up here because of a death in the family. Tom's step-dad passed away on Thursday so we headed out on Friday evening. It wasn't a bad trip, we made really good time, only took about 10 hours. We will be heading home Monday after the service.

The kids have been making the most of the trip, taking pictures and cutting up and having a good time. I know it is not going to be fun for them at the services but I am glad that they are having a good time right now.

Tom's new job is going well. I have to say it is a little weird him going to work by walking down the hall but he is loving it.

Well I will try and post at least one more time before we leave but for now it is time to relax and enjoy the Tennessee view.

I'm ready......

2010-02-15T17:00:00.000-08:00

Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.

Philippians 4:6

This verse has been bouncing around in my head today so I thought I would share it with you.

This is my year to learn to "let go and let God" and it can sometimes be alot easier said then done. But as you always hear,'if it was easy then everybody would be able to do it', and that is true. God has so much in store for me this year and there may be some battles that I have to fight and then there may be times I have to sit back and let God fight it for me and I am OK with that. I am not saying it will be easy but I am ready. This year is my year to stand firm on what I believe and to not back down or run away when it gets hard.

So what ever you are in need of take it to God and let Him take care of it and TRUST that He has your best interest at heart

Trust....

2010-02-03T08:35:00.000-08:00

In Life Coaching again this year we are supposed to choose our "word of the year" and again mine is TRUST. Last year is was more about trusting others and myself but this year it is about trusting God. This verse really spoke to me today:

O Sovereign LORD, you are God! Your words are trustworthy, and you have promised these good things to your servant. 2 Samuel 7:27

Why do we ever doubt that God has good things planned for us. It says right in the bible that He has promised good things for us but I think sometimes we believe that is for everyone besides ourselves. It says right here in this verse that God is Trustworthy but yet we try to keep things from Him (like He doesn't know any way) because we think that He will not understand or that our problem is way to big for God. Think about that.....the God who created everything can not handle our problems....when you really stop and think about that statement it is laughable, well at least to me it is.

So that is my plane for this year...to trust God in every situation not just the ones I think He can handle but in every aspect of my life.

I know things happen for a reason and I really believe with all of my heart God is going to use me and my family this year to bring about some big changes.

I am asking all of you out there that consider me their friend to stand with me in prayer that I will allow God to walk and talk through me this year in all areas of my life and that He gives me the courage to stand for what I believe in....no matter what.

Guess what....

2010-01-30T19:47:00.000-08:00

it is finally here!!!!!!!!!!!! The launch day of Celebration Church!!!!!!!!! It has been one of the most exhausting weeks of my life but it is all worth it.

We had the unveiling of the sign this morning which was amazing, then we headed to Florida Ave and Bearss Ave to hand out chocolate, that is something that I have never done before, but it was alot of fun (we defiantly need to do it again).

After that I headed out with Candy and Heather to get all of the things for tomorrow nights Celebration launch party. We had a blast, it felt like we were all over the Tampa Bay area. We got back to the church at about 6:30 then I had a couple more errands to run myself so I finally made it home at about 8 or 8:30. Now it is relaxation time before bed.

So if you are anywhere never the Tampa Bay area at 10:00 am tomorrow morning join us at Celebration Church for the start of something great!!!!!!

Out with the old.....

2010-01-28T06:51:00.000-08:00

in with the new!!!

That has been the "theme" at work for the last 3 months or so. We are just days away from launching a BRAND NEW church in the Tampa Bay area and it is sooooo exciting. Like I read in one of my favorite blog (Michele's) it is kind of bitter sweet. I thought I would recap all the wonderful things that have happened in my life while I have attended Northside:

*God finally got a hold of me, and I mean really a hold of me

*My husband was miraculously saved

*My girls have all 3 given their heart to Christ

*Everyone in my family was baptized

*I am learning to TRUST people and let them "in"

*I have met some of my very very best friend in my life at Northside

Wow, God can do alot in 8 years!!!

Now I can hardly wait to see what God is going to do at and through Celebration Church. Pastor Deanna always says the best is yet to come and boy I believe it.

If you live anywhere remotely close to the Tampa Bay area and believe that no church will ever accept you or that you have gone to far for God or anyone else to ever love you again, I invite you to Celebration Church this Sunday. As soon as you step on the property you are among friends that will love you and I mean truly love you no matter where you are at or where you are coming from. We are here for you and I mean that from the bottom of my heart. We are a church that will accept you and we can introduce you to a Savior that will love you through all of your past and be there with you to show you around in your future.

If you have any question about us look us up on the web: www.celebrationchurchtampa.com

What a ride...

2010-01-21T16:21:00.000-08:00

but you gotta love it...........

It has been a little nutty around here lately.

Last week the girls had mid-terms so the older two got out of school at 11:30 on some days and 9:45 on some days....depending on what classes they had that day. So it was a little crazy having to get tham at different times everyday. But we made it through it and they all think they did pretty well on their exams.

We have been going 90 to nothing with the launch which is just around the corner...literally. You never realize how much there is to do until you jump in and start doing it. But it will all be worth it in the end...when we open those doors on January 31 and start this new chapter it is going to be amazing...trust me!!!!!!!!!

The week of prayer was amazing.....it is hard to pin point one things but I think by far my favorite was Prayer and Pancakes. We have had them in the past and they were great but there was just something different about this one. There was just such a spirit of unity and acceptance and love....it is hard to explain unless you were there. I tell you this though if that is even just a small sample of what heaven is going to be like then all of the crap we have to go through now is definitely worth it.

Now this week....well I should of expected a tough one after the week of prayer and it has been a challenging one. The week started off pretty good but Wednesday we were thrown a curve ball. Tom went to the doctor for a lump he has had on his leg since around Christmas time. It has gotten bigger over time so we wanted to get it checked out. Well the doctor looked at him and said that he didn't know what it was and sent him to the ER, so we were in the ER all day yesterday. The only thing we know right now is that it is an abscess, they sent him home with an antibiotic and want him to follow up with a surgeon. Right now he is sore because they did cut it open and try to drain it. But we are believing God for a healing and that we will not have to go to the surgeon.

So now it is Thursday night and am trying to recoop from all the craziness. Life Coaching starts Saturday and I am sooooooo excited about that. Life Coaching has been so amazing and has helped me so much...it has brought me out of my shell and taught me to TRUST people the way I should. It has taught me to let go of the past and to look forward to the future and to treasure the present. The ladies that are in that group hold a special place in my heart and always will!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Well time to relax...don't get that opportunity very often so I am going to take advantage of it.

May your unfailing love rest upon us, O Lord, even as we put our hope in you.

Psalm 33:22

What's going on.....

2010-01-09T17:41:00.000-08:00

the first things that's going on is it is COLD here in sunny Florida!!!!!!!!!!!!! There is a possibility of snow...yes I said snow..here..in Florida...can you believe it?!?!?!?!?

Secondly...I am feeling sooooo much better and so is Tom. Thanks everyone for all of your prayers...it is greatly appreciated.

We had one of the last work days at church today before our launch on the 31st of this month. It is amazing what God is doing among His people. I just love to sit back and look at all the people in the church right now...I can look at each person and see how much God is doing in them, through them, and what He is accomplishing through their willingness to serve. I thank God everyday for allowing me to be apart of His amazing church and allowing me to serve right beside some of the most unbelievable loving and caring people on the planet!! You guys will never fully understand what you mean to me and how much I love each and everyone of you.

Just as lotions and fragrance give sensual delight, a sweet friendship refreshes the soul. Proverbs 27:9 (The Message)

Yesterday...

2010-01-06T06:58:00.000-08:00

was a full day. Sorry I did not post anything but by the time I made it home fixed dinner and ate it I was out. I fell asleep on the couch for about 30 min. then had to get up and do laundry and get everything ready for today. So here is what I will leave you with for now:

He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High will rest in the shadow of the Almighty. Psalm 91:1

Hope everyone has a great Wednesday!!!

What a way to start the New Year...

2010-01-04T12:28:00.000-08:00

sick!!!!

I missed church the first Sunday of the New Year and the first day back to work after the holidays. We are getting ready for the launch of Celebration in a few weeks, not a good time to miss church or work.

I always look forward to the week between Christmas and New Year's because I get the week off and boy do I need it, but there is one down side....I feel very isolated. I know that may sound weird, I love stating home but I kinda get in a funk and by the end of the week I am definitely ready to go back to work. And now I am sick.....yuck!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! But I am feeling better so it looks like I will be back at work tomorrow....yea!!!!

One of my New Year's resolutions is to try and blog a little everyday, I had fallen behind on it lately (a good friend brought that to my attention). So it may not be a long one but I promise I will try and write something everyday.

Well Happy Monday to all and to all a good evening!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It's a New Year....

2010-01-02T11:50:00.000-08:00

yes I know I have a knack for stating the obvious...lol... but I just felt it was something that I needed to state out loud, if you will.

This past year has been one full of ups and downs but all in all not that bad:
*Tom started his business which has not taken off as well as he had hoped but he makes a little doing it.
*I have re-established a relationships with a family member that I felt the Lord telling me it was time to do.
*My youngest daughter started middle school.
*My middle daughter started high school.
*My oldest daughter became a senior in high school.
*I have grown alot.
*We moved...not all our choice but it was for the best.
*I had to choose a "word of the year" for Life Coaching and I chose TRUST, never realized how much I didn't trust until I began to focus on it. I have learned to "let" people in more, and I have gained so much from them.

Now what does the New Year bring...hopefully more growth in God, Tom and I growing closer, my daughter's graduations from high school and the start of her college career, the continued growth of my girls in the things of the Lord.....I could go on and on but these are just a few of the things that I am looking forward to in this New Year.

*Thank you Lord for this New Year...I pray that I do and accomplish all that You have for me this year*

2009-11-17T18:48:00.000-08:00

Trust in him at all times, O people; pour out your hearts to him, for God is our refuge.

Its a new beginning......

2009-11-05T19:43:00.000-08:00

this is going to be the view from our new apartment...not too bad.

Sometimes we don't understand God's plans but we just have to do what He says...so we are, we are moving. No not far just right down the road so relax...lol!!

The lesson I have learned...listen to God and do what He says when He says....

Lesson learned God...

Thought for the day....

2009-11-05T08:50:00.000-08:00

The LORD is my strength and my shield; my heart trusts in him, and I am helped. My heart leaps for joy and I will give thanks to him in song. Psalm 28:7

Wrap Me InYour Arms......

2009-11-02T08:43:00.000-08:00

New favorite song.......

A fun weekend.....

2009-10-27T19:24:00.000-07:00

I know it is Tuesday but I thought I would tell you about our weekend.

Friday night Chamberlain won their first football game of the year....yeah!!!!!! Saturday we were at the school all day, we hosted a band competition for some of the area schools and it was sooo much fun...alot of work but fun.

Sunday we had church and the BIG announcement was made.....as of January 30, 2010 Northside will no loner exist...we are launching a brand new church and the name is Celebration Church!!!!!!!!!!!! We are all so excited...there is alot of work to be done, we have 90 days before the launch, but we will get it done. There is going to be remodeling and cleaning and a lot of other stuff....very exciting.

Then Sunday night was our annual Holy Roller night. The girls dressed up this year, they usually don't, Ashlee dressed up like Abby from NCIS, Britney dressed up like Ms. Candy, and Kirsti was a vampire. They had so much fun!!!!!!!!!!

Well that was my weekend....hope yours was as much fun as mine!!!

Its been a loooooong couple of days.....

2009-10-24T20:01:00.000-07:00

but I promised to post something everyday.

We had a football game last night which we won (the first one all year)!!!! Then today we had competition all day at the school so we are all soooooooooo tired. Ashlee fell asleep as soon as she hit the couch.

I am off to bed...tomorrow is going to be a great day at "Northside" (not going to be that much longer) and I can't wait to see what God has in store for His people.

I'm sooo excited....

2009-10-22T20:29:00.000-07:00

and I just can't hide it....and after Sunday I won't have to.

We just got back from a leadership meeting and all I can say is WOW!!!!!

We are in a transition period and I can't hardly wait for it to all come together. Pastor is revealing the new name this Sunday and then we will be off like a rocket...so much to do in a short amount of time but with God's help it will get done.

All I can say is get ready Tampa... cause we are on fire!!!!

Word for Today....

2009-10-21T07:33:00.000-07:00

Are you tired? Worn out? Burned out on religion? Come to me. Get away with me and you'll recover your life. I'll show you how to take a real rest. Walk with me and work with me-watch how I do it. Learn the unforced rhythms of grace. I won't lay anything heavy or ill-fitting on you. Keep company with me and you'll learn to live freely and lightly." Matthew 11:28-29

WOW.....

2009-10-19T17:56:00.000-07:00

first of all let me apologize, I did not realize that it has been soooo long since I have posted anything.

So what has been going on in my life you ask? What has kept me away from blogging? One word....LIFE!!

Once this school year started it took off like a rocket...but I am going to do my best to blog at least a line or two every night.

To start off with I thought I would share with you a typical week for me...so here is my week in a nut shell...

Monday...usually Monday's are a down day, I get to come home and make dinner and chill with the family of course that is after work

Tuesday....the girls have practice, Kirsti and Ashlee have practice until 7 and Britney has practice until 5:15, so I get off from work at 4:30 head to pick up Britney then back down to Chamberlain to get the other 2, after that it is back home to fix dinner, eat, homework, and off to bed

Wednesday....is church so the girls get dropped off at church after school, we figure out dinner, eat then have church, we head home about 9:00 or 9:30, then bed

Thursday....Kirsti and Ashlee have practice until 8:00, so I get off at 4:30 come home cook dinner; Tom, Britney and I eat then I head back down to get the other two, get home about 8:30 or 9:00, they eat then do homework (if they have any, they usually get in dome after school and before practice, they have about 45 minutes for that) then off to bed

Friday.....GAME DAY, I get off about 1:00, do my Friday running around( I usually have to get stuff for the game), wait for Britney to get home, then we head back down to Chamberlain for the game, weather it is a home game or away game we go, then we head home at about 11:00ish

Saturday....they are always up in the air, I sometimes have Life Coaching or the girls may have a competition or a practice or something going on

Sunday....choir practice, church, lunch, then home for a nap.....unless we have something going on like a leadership meeting or choir practice or something else .....

then we do it all again.....

So as you can tell by our schedule we are pretty busy....but it is worth it...they are only young once and I want them to get all they can out of it...

Hopefully this will explain why I have been absence from the blogging world but like I said I am going to do my best to post a little something everyday...

so until tomorrow.....

p.s. I forgot to add...in the midst of all of this Tom has started his own mobile mechanic business so he is working...alot...to get that up and running

First football game....

2009-09-11T20:22:00.000-07:00

Rained out!!!!!!!!!!!!

Why...

2009-09-06T17:29:00.000-07:00

do I listen?

That may seem like a weird question until I explain.Why do I feel so unworthy? Why do I listen to that voice that tells me that I am unworthy?

There are times I think; when are they going to find out how unqualified I am, when are they going to find out that I have no clue what I am doing? There are times when I step back and think what the heck am I doing? Who do I think I am? I can not compare to these people around me. I am not as spiritual or as smart or as together as they are. There are times that I just want to crawl away and hide.

Then I realize that we are all the same...we all have these same feelings from time to time. One thing that I have learned is that God does not call the qualified but he qualifies the called. I believe that I have been called...I have been called to make a difference in this world and I have to learn not to lean on myself but to lean on God.

An another thing I have learned is that no one is perfect, that is one that I forget from time to time. I know I am not perfect but sometimes I feel like I have to be...so that is something I am working on. I have never had a real good view of myself but I think that I have come along way but there are still times that I need a little reminding, that is why I love this song:

So again I ask...Why do I listen?

17 years....

2009-08-29T19:16:00.000-07:00

and counting!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Today is mine and Tom's 17th wedding anniversary...I say wedding anniversary because we celebrate 2 different anniversaries, one in February and the other in August(February was our first date which was going to be our wedding anniversary also but circumstances changed it...another story for another time), but I digress...

we took off for the weekend and are enjoying every moment of it. The initial plans were changed but that does not matter, we are together and that is all that matters.

Tom got me beautiful heart necklace and took me out for a great steak dinner.I did not think it was possible to love someone more every year but I do...we always heard that we would not make it but look at us now...17 years later we are still together and going strong.

*Thank you God for allow me to find my soul mate and having my whole life to spend with him*

A new chapter...

2009-08-24T12:30:00.000-07:00

tomorrow is the beginning of lot of changes.

School starts back and it will be Kirsti's first day of her last year of high school, Ashlee's first day of high school and Britney's first day of middle school. Needless to say I am a little nervous...not sure why but this year seems different.

I will post some pictures of the first day tomorrow. I have a lot of things rolling around in my head so it may take me a while to digest it, I will try to post some of my thoughts as well.

All I know is that this is going to be a big year...I can feel it.

I know...do you..

2009-08-10T14:09:00.000-07:00

We sang a song in church on Sunday titled "I know who I am"and I have been thinking about that ever since.

The words are: I know who I am I know who I am I know who I am and I am your and you are mine...Jesus you are mine.

How many times have we sang or heard this song, I know I have sang it alot but it never sank in.....I am God's and He is mine!!!!!!!!!! When you stop to think about that how awesome is that. He, God, knows me by name and not only that but He know every hair on my head. The King of Kings knows my name and He loves me and cares about me, when I hurt He hurts. Whatever matters to me matters to Him. And you know what I don't deserve it...none of us do but He loves us anyways.

Why do I walk around so fearful at times when God knows who I am, He loves me and would lay His life down for me in fact He already did,knowing all the times I was going to mess things up or walk away from Him He still CHOOSE to die for ME!!!

WOW...now that is real, true love!!!!!!!!

I know who I am.....do you know who you are???????????

Food for thought.....

2009-08-06T14:48:00.000-07:00

Some trust in chariots and some in horses, but we trust in the name of the LORD our God. Psalm 20:7

I know not many of us have chariots today but what are you putting your TRUST in?

It can be hard to trust in what we can not see but we have to, that is what faith is all about. Even when it feels like the world is closing in on you, you have to look up for the help you need...so many times we look around and try to figure out how WE can fix it or how WE can make something happen....when we really just need to stop and let God be God!!!

Sometimes we need to just stop...

2009-08-03T07:21:00.000-07:00

Have you ever just stopped and thought about how much Jesus really loves you?

On the way to work this morning they played this song on the radio, I have heard it soooo many times before but I guess I never really heard it until today. And it occurred to me that maybe someone else needed to hear this today so here it is...just sit back and really listen to the words, I hope it speaks to you as much as it did me...

Treading water...

2009-07-28T18:44:00.000-07:00

that is what I feel like I am doing, and not well.

Every time it seems like we have things under control something happens to let me know that I don't. Is this God's way of telling me that I never have it under control? I don't know...I know He is in control of the small things but why is it so hard to trust Him with the big things? I can TRUST Him for other people but why can't I TRUST Him for my own situations?

There is that word again...TRUST...I never knew how much I needed to work on that. I guess what they say is true...once you say something out loud it makes it more real or maybe in this case it brought it more to my attention. Whatever the case it is a lesson that I am learning this year and you know what...it is a hard one.

*Lord help me to TRUST you with every situation in my life...even the big ones*

How quick things can change...

2009-07-19T19:31:00.000-07:00

with in 30 minutes. One minute my mom and Britney are chasing each other around Wendy's parking lot and 30 minutes later she is in the E.R. with all the symptoms of a stroke.

We are not sure what is gong on, all of the test have come back negative, there are no bleeds on the brain, no brain swelling...so we have no idea what is going go. One thought is that is was a type of seizures but nothing conclusive yet.

So right now Iam asking for everyone to pray... God is more then able to heal her and that is what we are standing on right now...

New Addition...

2009-07-14T16:55:00.000-07:00

yes folks we have a new addition to our family....no not another baby so pick yourself up off the floor ;)

I finally got my dog...well almost, it is not a Yorkie but it is a silky terrier, but he looks alot like a Yorkie.

His name is Elmo (he was already named that and he responds to it so I don't think I am going to be able to change it) and he is 1 1/2 years old. I got him from the Pasco County Animal Shelter, he is pure breed and AKC registered. His owner gave him up because they said he tried to bite a toddler(but I do not know what the kid did to him). He has not been aggressive one bit

with any of us, that is what makes me wonder about what really happened.

Right now Max is checking him out...just getting use to her new brother!!

Cow Appreciation Day...

2009-07-10T17:49:00.000-07:00

My family will do anything for FREE food...lol!!!!

Sorry...

2009-07-09T07:28:00.000-07:00

boy time sure got away from me. I was going to post more about our stay-cation then the next thing I knew it was Thursday and I hadn't posted anything, so for that... I apologize.

We had a great time, of course it was not long enough but we take whatever we can. The girls had a blast and believe it or not everyone was very well behaved (I know it shocked me too).

We ended up not going to Daytona, we spent the day in Orlando. The girls wanted to go to the "World's Largest McDonald's",( yes it is in Orlando and every time we are in Orlando we always say that we will go there next time) so we did. We were there for 2 hours playing video games and having fun. So Tom called the girls over and told them that there was no way that we could make it to Daytona, watch fireworks, and be back home at a descent time for church Sunday morning so we decided to hang in Orlando. We hit some gift shops and did the tourist thing, taking pictures and acting goofy, then Tom found a nice flea market there so we headed over there. It was soooo much fun!!!!!!!!

Then we headed back to Tampa and went to Channelside to watch the fireworks with some friends and of course we ended the whole "stay-cation" with ice cream, does it get any better then that?!?!?!

I posted all of the pictures on my facebook so you can head over that way and see all the fun we had.

*Thank you God for allowing us this short time away..we needed it*

We are...

2009-07-04T21:32:00.000-07:00

home from an awesome stay-cation. I am soooo tired, I have a bunch more pictures but I am too tired tonight to post, I will post more tomorrow. We are going to try to go to the beach after church so if anybody wants to join come on, not sure which beach yet but if you want to go let us know and we will figure it out.

Looking foward to a great day at Northside tomorrow...something exciting is going to happen...can't wait...see ya there!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Stay-cation day 1...

2009-07-03T19:46:00.000-07:00

we headed out to Orlando today so I wanted to put some pics up of the drive up.

The girls are having a ball and you know what so am I. We have not done anything like this in a long time..way too long.

So here are the pics of the drive up and of dinner...enjoy

2009-07-02T11:30:00.000-07:00

But I trust in your unfailing love; my heart rejoices in your salvation.

Psalm13:5

Don't worry...

2009-07-01T13:12:00.000-07:00

I am still here.
I know it has been a while since I have really posted anything but don't worry things are pretty good...just been real busy.
Just wanted to stop by and let all my adoring fans(lol) that I have not forgotten about you ...I promise.

Tom and I are planning a little weekend get-a-way with the girls this weekend. Tom has Saturday off so we are heading to Orlando Friday night(we got a GREAT deal on a hotel...$35 a night) then we are going to drive over to Daytona and spend Saturday on the beach...just a fun and relaxing weekend.
Well I will post some pictures when we get back...hope everyone has a great 4th of July weekend!!!!!!!!

2009-06-29T09:46:00.000-07:00

"If God gives such attention to the appearance of wildflowers—most of which are never even seen—don't you think he'll attend to you, take pride in you, do his best for you? What I'm trying to do here is to get you to relax, to not be so preoccupied with getting, so you can respond to God's giving. People who don't know God and the way he works fuss over these things, but you know both God and how he works. Steep your life in God-reality, God-initiative, God-provisions. Don't worry about missing out. You'll find all your everyday human concerns will be met. "Give your entire attention to what God is doing right now, and don't get worked up about what may or may not happen tomorrow. God will help you deal with whatever hard things come up when the time comes." Matthew 6:30-34 (The Message)

New hair pics...

2009-06-13T20:30:00.001-07:00

I know, I know...

2009-06-12T18:20:00.000-07:00

it has been awhile since I have post anything but it has been a little crazy.

Summer has started and the girls are enjoying the pool...I think they have gone swimming everyday so far. They are working on their tans..so I've been told. But they are having a good summer so far. I can not believe that next school year I will have 2 in high school and one in middle school...that makes me feel really old but I am enjoying my girls. I love the ages they are, some people don't like teenagers but I don't mind, they are good kids.

Tonight Brit is at a Rays game with some kids from church so I took Kirsti and Ashlee to get hair cuts (Great Clips is having a huge sale right now $7.99 for a hair cut till Monday). Kirsti also wanted to color it so I stopped by the store and picked up some hair dye. I may not get any pics tonight but I will post some soon.

This Sunday is our annual church beach day and I can't wait, it is my favorite day of the whole year. A day to just sit on the beach and enjoy the sand, sun, and water. I will post some pics of that also.

I am looking forward to the summer...it is going to be a blast. Not sure what is in store for me but I know I serve a big God and I am excited about all the ways He is going to surprise me this summer!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-06-02T19:44:00.000-07:00

I have had alot on my mind lately and God is showing me that no matter what I need to praise Him...even through the storms!!!

Well, she did it...

2009-05-22T19:48:00.000-07:00

Ashlee made Chiefettes!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

This is something that she has been practicing for all week long. Like I said last week this week was going to be a crazy one and it was.....but it was all worth it. Ashlee had tryout practice all week plus a mandatory practice for Orchestra then her final concert on Thursday. She has worked soooo hard this week and it paid off. I am so proud of her, she is entering a new phase of her life and it is going to be so exciting to watch. It is really weird watching your kids walk a path that you have but it is kind of cool (and it makes me feel a little old too).

We are going to have a fun filled year next year, Kirsti in band and Ashlee being a Chiefette, and Britney wants to join the soccer team in middle school...so it is going to be another packed year but hey they are only young once and I want them to get the most out of every year.

Yep, I am a proud momma!!!!!!

Rain...

2009-05-19T11:55:00.000-07:00

It has been raining the last week here and I love it. Alot of people may not like the rain but I love it!!!!! And yes, we have needed it sooooo bad so thank God we are getting it.

With that said, it drives me crazy how people will say, "we need the rain", then once it starts the same people start saying,"I wish it would stop raining"....come on people make up your mind...

This week God has used the rain to show me a few things...

How many times do we say, "God rain down in my life, use me, stretch me, mold me to who you want me to be", then the moment the "rain" comes or the "growing pains" start we say, "God make it stop, it is too much, I can't handle this". We need to make up our minds...do we want God to use us and mold us or are we happy were we are at?

If your prayer is, "God send the rain", then you better be ready to get wet!!! We are in the last days and in the last days He will pour even more of His spirit out in this land....so get ready!!

I am ready to get wet...are you!!!!!!

2009-05-18T12:12:00.000-07:00

Commit everything you do to the Lord.
Trust him, and he will help you.

Psalms 37:5

(Thanks Sheri, I needed that today!!!)

2009-05-15T18:05:00.000-07:00

I am so glad that today is Friday...this has been a long week for me.

I can not seem to get rid of this cold/flu bug that I picked up a couple of weeks ago. I am so tired and run down and I just can't get enough sleep but I am hoping that I will be able to sleep some tomorrow.

Not too much going on just end of the school year stuff. Next week we have 2 final concerts(on the same night). Ashlee is trying out for the Cheifettes at Chamberlain for next year so she has practice every night. So needless to say I am going to be running like crazy next week (another reason I need to shake this bug).

The girls are good...they are looking forward to the summer and to be honest so am I. Things slow down a little bit and boy I need that. This has been a non stop school year this year, it has flown by sooooo fast.

Well Tom and I are enjoying a quiet house right now(Ashlee is at her 8th grade dance and Kirsti and Britney went to a baseball game) so we are using this time to catch up on some of out shows(thank God for DVRs).

Hope everyone has a great weekend...that is my plan!!!

This is sooo true....

2009-05-12T11:57:00.000-07:00

Pastor Deanna just put this picture up on our Worship Blog and it so funny and true!!! We have so much fun in choir, it is so nice not to have to worry if "sister so and so" is going to get her feeling hurt over something. We all truly love each other and yes we love to pick on each other but it is all in good fun. I couldn't ask for a better group of people to worship God with and as PD often says,do life with!!
Love you guys, you are the best

Mother's Day wrap up...

2009-05-10T20:25:00.000-07:00

this has been the absolutely best Mother's Day ever!!!

First of all Tom took me out on Friday night to Macaroni Grill then we went to Starbucks then after that he took me to see the new Star Trek movie and it was sooo good, not just the movie but the dinner also.

Saturday I got to sleep in till about noon, yes noon, Tom had to work and the girls were gone all day, so it was just me and Max(our dog) so we slept in and that was so nice. I got up and just chilled and watched some shows that I had recorded and stay in my PJ all day. Once Tom got home from work (which was 2 hours later than normal, he had to work overtime) I got dressed and we headed to the store to pick up last minute things for dinner tonight.

This morning I woke up to my lovely girls giving me my gift, I got a new black purse, and necklace, a rose, and a pair of fuzzy socks for around the house, Tom also got me a dozen of pink roses. We went to lunch with a bunch of people from church and had a blast, oh by the way the service was awesome today, Pastor Deanna is such a good preacher, I consider it an absolute honor to sit under her teaching. After lunch we headed home and I laid down for about a hour and a half nap then got up and went to Sheri & Joel's for dinner, everyone was there and it was alot of fun. My family is such a hoot!!!
Well that was my Mother's Day weekend and it was great, I hope everyone else had a great day also and if you haven't told your Mom that you love her, tell her and don't wait for next year or a special occasion to do it!!

Now it is bed time, I am so tired and tomorrow it all starts again!!

*Thank you God for my family and friends, I am so blessed, I could not ask for more*

Friday...

2009-05-08T13:29:00.000-07:00

yea, today is Friday and guess what...I have a date!!!!!!!!!!! Not sure where we are going, Tom won't tell me where we are going, he wants it to be a surprise, he likes doing that every so often.

So I hope eveyone has a great Friday and an awesome weekend!!!!!!!!!!

Love ya

Friends...

2009-05-06T20:02:00.000-07:00

why do we find it so hard to make and keep close friends?

Just food for thought...

Is it because we are afraid to let people in or that we are afraid they will see all of our ugliness? Whatever the reason I thank God that He sends us what or should I say who we need right when we need it.

*Thanks God for sending me what I need when I need it*

2009-05-06T07:05:00.000-07:00

Sometimes we get so wrapped up in what we DON'T have that we forget to stop and thank God for what we DO have. So today I thought I would share 5 things that I am thankful for.

1. My relationship with the Lord; without that I do not know where I would be.

2. My loving husband;he has been there right beside me through everything and I love him more today then the day we were married, I could not ask for a better person to spend the rest of my life with.

3.My girls; yes they drive me absolutely crazy sometimes but I would not change it for the world, they have taught me how to love unconditionally and for that I am ever grateful.

4. My church family; wow what can I say about them expect thank you for always being there and never judging me but loving me through my crazy life... you guys are the best.

5. My life; I have not gone through some of the things that others have but my life has not been a cake walk either. But I am very thankful for everything that I have gone through in my life because it has brought me to the place I am today. I love where I am at and I am loving the ride...as Pastor Deanna always says, the best is yet to come!!!!!!

Today...

2009-05-04T18:59:00.000-07:00

was a quiet day at work. The Pastors are at District Council until Wednesday, Pastor T was in the office but it was still quiet.

Today was a good day...just typical Monday stuff to do. Had dinner and a movie with the family,the girls have been wanting us to watch Disturbia, they recorded it off of HBO this weekend so we watched it tonight. It was good but the best part was we watched it as a family, we have not had much family time lately so that was nice.

Well I said I would post more pictures from Fine Arts so here they are...enjoy

UHG...

2009-05-03T21:17:00.000-07:00

this past week I have felt sooooo bad. I think between Fine Arts and working I worn myself down and in all of that I picked up a flu bug...yea for me!!!

I have not felt as bad as I have this past week in a very long time. So needless to say I have not felt like doing anything. I still need to post more pictures from Fine Arts and I will do that this week.

I just wanted to let everyone know that I am still here just have been under the weather this past week. I will be back to posting every day or so this week, I know how much you have all missed me.

Fine Arts...

2009-04-24T20:06:00.000-07:00

today was soooo much fun.

We headed up to Orlando last night for the Fine Arts competition and we had such a blast. We stopped at a Burger King in Haines City and took over the place. At one time the kids had started a food fight but that was reigned in before it got out of hand. We really have a great bunch of kids, they are very well behaved just typical teenagers.

This morning we got up and headed over to the church for the first day of competition and they all did sooooo good. We are pretty sure that the large human video will go to Nationals. Ashley's solo was awesome and we are almost positive she will go to National as well. The small human video was good too just not sure if it will make it or not. We will find out tomorrow all of the results so I post and let you know.

Here are a few pictures of us getting settled in our room last night...we had alot of girls in the room as you can tell from the one picture we even had one sleeping in the tub!!!

This really is a great group of kids and I am so proud of all of them!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

One step up...

2009-04-13T07:31:00.000-07:00

then something comes along and knocks me off the ladder!!!!

Easter was great yesterday, went out to lunch with the Stewarts and had a great time. Came home got to take a nap then we headed over to mom and dads for dinner and that was great too...

but the moment we walked in the door it felt like all hell broke loose!!!!!!!!!!!!

Don't really want to get into the details just asking for ALOT of prayer, we really need it.

P.S. for those wondering Tom's job is great, this time that is not the problem, Thank God!!

I'm OK...

2009-04-01T07:19:00.000-07:00

Last week was a really tough one, one that I do not care to go through again but in the middle of all the craziness (once I pulled myself up, that took about a day) I was OK. I knew that God would work everything out and He did, He even worked it out for cheaper then we were expecting.

I don't know why I walk around in such fear when something unexpected happens. Do I really think that God didn't see it coming? Do I really think that He didn't already have it all worked out? Do I really think that He is not big enough to handle my problems?

As I have said a couple of times here on my blog my word for the year is TRUST, I never realized how much work I needed with that word but boy do I.

*Lord help me to trust you in EVERY situation, even the really tough ones because I know you are there holding my hand, walking with me!!*

Just the way I have been feeling lately...

2009-03-24T10:56:00.000-07:00

Things aren’t always what they seem, you’re only seeing part of me, there’s more than you could ever know, Behind the scenes, I’m incomplete and I’m undone, but I suppose like everyone, there’s so much more that’s going on, Behind the scenes

Sometimes I can’t see anything through the dark surrounding me and at times I’m unsure about the ground beneath my feet if it’s safe and sound

When it’s hard to find hope in the unseen I have peace in knowing it will find me

Behind The Scenes - Francesca Battistelli

How...

2009-03-19T11:06:00.000-07:00

do you get respect out of a teenager? No really I want to know... every time I turn around my child is being sooooooo disrespectful and it is driving me crazy.

She is doing well in school but now her mouth is going none stop and she can be so ugly. I guess we can't have good grades and respect...that would be just way too much to ask!!!

Pastor Deanna's prayer was to be able to get Jordan to 18 safe and sound...I just want to get her to 18 in one piece... her dad is going to rip her in two if she doesn't get her mouth in check!!!!

Ugh teenagers... I heard a comedian say that he thinks when satan was kick out of heaven he was a 15 year old rebellious teenager. You know what, think about it and it makes sense... he wouldn't listen, he thought he knew everything and he even thought he knew MORE then the Father ;) (just a little humor because if I can't laugh I will go insane!!)

But really if you have any ideas about the respect thing please let me know... I am at the end of my rope and if things don't change I may hang her with it!!!!

Great Sunday...

2009-03-15T19:04:00.000-07:00

church was great, choir lunch was great, choir practice was great, and the best of all when I got home I took a nap (a 2 and 1/2 hour nap)!!!!!!!!

So in one word my Sunday was...

GREAT!!!!!!

*Thank you Lord for showing up in a big way today...I needed it!!! *

Thursday Evening...

2009-03-12T18:25:00.000-07:00

was horrible!!!!

Trust...

2009-03-12T12:34:00.000-07:00

In Life Coaching this year one of the things we were assigned to do was to choose a "word of the year", something that we wanted to work on in our lives. I chose Trust...not only for trust in God but for trust in myself.

I will try to explain:
I have always doubted myself, I doubt my abilities, I doubt my gifts, I doubt that what I have to offer anyone would want, I doubt my abilities as a parent, sometimes I even doubt that I actually heard from God.This is something that has been a big problem for me and I made up my mind that this is the year that I was going to beat it. And of course as soon as you make up your mind to do something positive the devil tries to fight it!!!!
It is an uphill battle but one that I know I will win!!!!!

a person on whom or thing on which one relies: God is my trust.

Just a reminder...

2009-03-09T12:11:00.000-07:00

Sometimes we can get so wrapped up in life that we forget that...
"Everything rides on hope"

Everything rides on hope now
Everything rides on faith somehow
When the world has broken me down
Your love sets me free

Wow...

2009-03-03T12:55:00.000-08:00

Yes, God will raise up a faraway nation against you, swooping down on you like an eagle, a nation whose language you can't understand, a mean-faced people, cruel to grandmothers and babies alike. They'll ravage the young of your animals and the crops from your fields until you're destroyed. They'll leave nothing behind: no grain, no wine, no oil, no calves, no lambs—and finally, no you. They'll lay siege to you while you're huddled behind your town gates. They'll knock those high, proud walls flat, those walls behind which you felt so safe. They'll lay siege to your fortified cities all over the country, this country that God, your God, has given you.- Deuteronomy 28:48-52

This was in my bible reading for today and wow!!
This is where Moses is talking to the children of Israel about the promise land and what would happen to them if they did not keep God's commandments.

Is it just me or does this sounds exactly like what we are living through right now!!!

First Offical Date...

2009-02-27T13:48:00.000-08:00

Well Kirsti is getting ready for her first date. She has gone out before in a group but tonight she is going to the movies, just her and her boyfriend. I am a little nervous but I guess we have to let her grow up sometime.

So pray for me...this is a new season for me!!!!

Why Oh Why...

2009-02-25T19:47:00.000-08:00

do some people have to play their music soooooo loud!!!!!

I love my apartment but the one thing I hate is rude neighbors who seem to forget the fact that they live in an apartment and that they have neighbors that do not share their love of loud music at 11:00 at night!!!!

I WANT TO GO TO SLEEP BUT I GUESS MY NEIGHBOR THINKS IT IS PARTY TIME!!!!

Ugh...

Full of Surprises...

2009-02-24T20:52:00.001-08:00

I love my husband sooo much!!!

He surprised me tonight with something that I have been wanting so bad for so long. He got me a new laptop, I am so happy, mine died a while back and I have been wanting one so he ordered me one and it was delivered today, and guess what...it is pink. Could it be more perfect!!!!!!

Well it is late and it is time to go to bed and spend some time with my wonderful husband!!!

My Prayer...

2009-02-24T07:36:00.000-08:00

I don't wanna go through the motions
I don't wanna go one more day
without Your all consuming passion inside of me
I don't wanna spend my whole life asking,
"What if I had given everything, instead of going through the motions?"

My Weekend in Review...

2009-02-18T09:23:00.000-08:00

I know it has been a while since I have posted anything but I guess life got in the way!!!

Last Friday we went to the fair and we had such a good time. We checked the kids out of school and just had a family day, we haven't had one in a long time.

The fair holds a special meaning to me and Tom, it was our first date in high school. So we try to go every year.

Saturday was a quiet day, even though it was Valentines Day Tom had to work. I had to do some errands for work since I had Friday off, I also had to take Kirsti up to her school because they marched in the Gasprilla parade. After everyone made it home Tom took me and Ashlee and Britney out to dinner for Valentines, it was a lot of fun. I think that was the first time we have all gone out for dinner on Valentines, it is usually just me and Tom but it was nice taking the girls this year.

Sunday we had church then Kirsti had human video practice so we went out to lunch we some of my favorite people(the Shrodes and Pastor's parent, Sue Flint and John Torres and his kids),we had a lot of fun. After lunch we headed back to church for our movie night. We watched Fireproof, we had seen it at the theater but I love that movie so much, I could watch it over and over.

Monday was an interesting day..I had a total of 9 girls in my house. Kirsti is writing a human video this year for Fine Arts and they needed to practice, being the nice mom that I am I suggested that they all just come home with us on Sunday night and stay the night so they can have all of Monday to practice so they did. They really got a lot done and I think it is going to be really good. I never knew how much food 9 girls could eat, we went through a total of 7 or 8 pizzas and a big box of Cheerios then for lunch I went to Taco Bell and got 26 tacos(I called ahead, I did not want to give them a heart attack and just walk in and order that much), they ate them all.

Well that was my weekend in a nut shell, hope yours was as much fun as mine!!!!!!

Teenagers aren't all that bad...

2009-02-09T19:22:00.000-08:00

I know I am always saying how hard it is to deal with teenagers or how hard it is to raise them and it is but I felt like I had to give a shout out to one very special teenager in my life.

My middle daughter, Ahslee is one of the sweetest teenagers you will ever meet. At first she is very shy until she gets to know you then look out she is a nut ( I wonder where she gets that from).

She is so compliant and so tender hearted it amazes me, she always seems to see the good in a situation.

When she was born she was a little earlier then expected so she had a few problems, her ear drums were not fully developed so she could only hear certain pitches and she had a hole in her abdominal and had to have surgery when she was a little over a year old. She wasn't a real affectionate baby, she did not like to be held she would cry until you put her down and as she got older she was, well mean, she would rather hit you then give you a hug.

But the older she has gotten the more affectionate she has gotten, she love to just sit with me and cuddle and watch T.V., she will lay in bed with me and just talk or she wants to just hold my hand or sit on my lap. She is now 14 and bigger then I am so the whole sitting on my lap thing is a little harder on me now but we do it.

She is in the 8th grade and is in a special program at school that is already preparing her for college. Her math class is a 9th grade level and all of her other subjects are on a 10th grade level, she is so smart it amazes me. She already knows what she wants to do with her life and is taking the stepps now to make sure it happens. She has her college picked out and as a matter fact she got to go on a little tour of it when she was in Tennessee this past Christmas time.

Like I said I am always focusing on the hard times but I just wanted to give you a glempise of what it is like to live with a great teenager as well!!

I love you my little boo( that is her nickname that she has had from the time she was born, and she tells her sisters that I am the only one aloud to call her that)

Ugh...

2009-02-04T14:05:00.000-08:00

teenagers!!!!!

Lord give me the patience to deal with all of the craziness!!!

There Will Be A Day...

2009-02-03T06:44:00.000-08:00

I heard this song this morning on the way to work and it really hit me.
God was telling me to hold on there will be a day and it will all be worth it.....

Hope it speaks to you as loudly as it did me!!!
Love Ya

Life Coaching...

2009-01-31T16:53:00.000-08:00

today was our first meeting of the new year and it was good.
We have so many new ladies, it is going to be alot of fun, and yes I really think I am going to learn alot this year too,its not all about the fun;)
Well the girls are waiting on me to watch our favorite show (Fringe) so I better go before they come drag me in there. Just wanted to stop in and say how excited I am about Life Coaching, these ladies mean more to me then they will ever know. I have grown so much and learned so much through their friendship.

I love you guys, you are the best!!!!!!

Change...

2009-01-28T06:14:00.000-08:00

is blowing in the air and I can hardly wait!! Out with the old and in with the new!

*God you are amazing!!!!!*

A Full Day before 10 AM...

2009-01-22T11:11:00.000-08:00

Yes, before 10 AM I felt like I had already worked a full day.

My day normally starts between 5:30 & 5:45 AM, getting Kirsti up for school, then I lay back down (usually) till about 6:30 then it is time to start getting the others up. This week I have been helping out a dear friend and taking her son to school. he gets to the house about 6:30. I am in the shower by 7:30 and out the door by 8:15 or so.

Well today was a lot more crazy...got Kirsti up then a few minutes later my mom calls and say she is sick and can not pick Kirsti up today so I say no problem I will take her on my way to work. Then Marcus arrives and as I am heading towards my room I smell something not right...yep you guessed it the dog had not gotten walked before bed the night before and she could not hold it any longer and she exploded in her crate...yuk!!! So now I have to clean up all of that mess.

So Tom takes Britney to the bus stop and gets her off and comes back to finish getting ready himself. My dad took Kirsti to school(thank God) then Ashlee. By this time I am in the shower so I can get going, after taking Marcus to school I had to go by Ashlee's school and talk to her AP because she is having problems out of someone in school harassing her and stalking her so had to get that taken care of...somewhere in all of the confusion of the morning Britney forgot to grab her lunch so I had to take it to her after my meeting...then finally to work I go!!

And this was all before 10 Am!!!!!!

Winter Jam...

2009-01-17T20:39:00.000-08:00

We had such a great time tonight...I got to meet my favorite singer(Francessa Battistelli) and get her autograph(that was so awesome).

Well all is quiet now and I am so tired, we had prayer and pancakes last night and didn't get to bed until 4 am then got up and did some running around then headed over to the concert so I am zapped. So I think it is time for bed, we have another full day ahead of us tomorrow with church then New Comers at Pastor's tomorrow night but... I do have Monday off and I am soooooo looking forward to it.

Good night all!!!

Word of the Year...

2009-01-16T16:15:00.000-08:00

Help me Lord to TRUST you more!!!!

THANK YOU GOD!!!!!!

2009-01-16T07:21:00.000-08:00

TOM GOT THE JOB HE WANTED!!!!!

Thank you so much for all of your prayers and love!!!!

Things are looking better...

2009-01-15T12:56:00.000-08:00

Well Tom had 2 other interviews today and it is looking like he will have a job, hopefully, by tomorrow.
Two place are very interested in him so we are waiting to here back from corporate on both. There is one that he really wants but at this point we will be happy with what ever God gives him.

Thanks for your prayers...keep 'em coming!!!

Hopeful...

2009-01-15T08:37:00.001-08:00

Tom had an interview this morning and things look good. The guy has to fax all of the paper work to the corporate office so hopefully we will hear something by this afternoon.

Just keeping holding us up in prayer and as soon as I hear anything I will let everyone know.

Love Ya

I know, I know

2009-01-12T19:36:00.000-08:00

it has been a while since I have stopped in but to be honest I just have not wanted to.

Let me explain...Tom was laid off AGAIN on Friday, yes the second time in two months and I have just wanted to hide or cry or both. I have put on the "I'm doing OK" face and done what I have needed to but then I come home and hide in my room under the covers.

No, things are not really better but I am trying to change my out look, still no job but he has a couple of interviews set up for later in the week so we will see.

Just wanted to stop in and ask for your prayers. I need all the prayers I can get not only for the job situation but for my state of mind as well.

Love you all!!!

2009...finally

2009-01-03T20:18:00.000-08:00

Well I am back home and boy did I need that mini-vacation!!!
My sister and I drove up to Tennessee and just hung out for a couple of days, nothing to think about, no plans really and boy was it nice.

But now I am home and it is back to reality...
(just a side note: I want to thank everyone for your prayers, the situation is getting better day by day and I know that the break through is just around the corner)

I have alot I want to accomplish this year and I am off to a good start...Tom and I starting working out tonight and it felt great. We both have a goal we want to reach by the summer time and we are going to work hard to get there. Something I realized tonight was that we have never worked out together, in our 19 years of being together, and it is going to be alot of fun and I think some great time spent together, he really is a good motivator, he really helped me when I didn't think I could go anymore, I am really looking forward to this time with him, he is going to plan our work out routine and we are going to stick to it.

While on vacation I went to church with Tom's mom and it was really good. He said alot of things that made sense to me, there where times when it felt like he was talking to me. The four main points were:
*you have to know the way (God is speaking to you, you just have to listen)
*you need to know God is with you (He will never leave you,no matter what)
*you need to know that God will give you the victory (you have to trust Him, in all things)
*you need to know that God is mighty (nothing is impossible)

This is another one of my goals for 2009, to live all of these points everyday. I am also starting the bible reading with Pastor Deanna, I have always wanted to read the bible all the way through I just never knew where or how to start but with this plan it should be easy for me to follow.

I know alot of people have said that 2008 was a really hard year and it was but now I am focusing on 2009, and I think that this year is going to be a great one not just a good one.

I don't think I have ever been so excited to start a new year, I really feel like this is going to a year of break through on so many levels for so many people and I am just so glad that I am going to have a front row seat to see it all unfold!!!!!!!!

Just a short one...

2008-12-27T21:38:00.000-08:00

I just wanted to stop by and ask all of you for some serious prayers ( not that all prayer is not serious) but I am dealing with a BIG issue right now and I need all of the prayers possible. I can't really say right now but don't worry the girls are fine (they are in Tennessee right now with Tom's mom).
I will try to stop in another day and tell you all about our Christmas but right now my mind is so preoccupied that I really can't think.

Love ya all and please be in prayer for me and my family.

It's begining to look alot like Christmas...

2008-12-20T21:32:00.000-08:00

well Tom and I went out last night and shopped for Christmas finally. We had so much fun, we do every year, then we finished up tonight. We took the girls to mom's house to make cookies with all of the other grand kids then we went out to dinner with my sisters and their husbands then went to finish up with the shopping. I had such a good time with them, we really do not spend enough time together, we laughed so hard, my family is so goofy but fun.
So now I am sitting here trying to wind down so I can go to bed, we have a busy day tomorrow. We have our Christmas service at church then we have Andrew's birthday party to go to.

Nighty night to all...

Things are a little better...

2008-12-18T19:53:00.000-08:00

I have gotten some sleep but I am still really tired. I have been sleeping better but not 100%.

Keep praying that I continue to sleep better and better every night cause I have a busy couple of weeks coming up. From Life Coaching on Saturday to baking cookies with my mom Saturday night to church on Sunday then a birthday party then Christmas and on and on and on... and to top it off I am heading to Tennessee on the 30th for a couple of days, so like I said I have alot coming up. I am looking forward to all of it I just want to be well rested so I can enjoy myself.

Hope everyone has a great weekend!!!

Sleep glorious sleep...

2008-12-17T07:14:00.000-08:00

this is one thing that seems to be alluding me. I had a fantastic "PJ" day, just hung around the house, watched T.V., did a little bit of laundry, it was wonderful. But since Saturday night I have not been able to sleep, I may sleep for a hour but that is it and I am beginning to run out of steam!!!

So all of my friends out there please pray that I will be able to sleep, I got a few more hours last night but I am so tired that I feel like I am walking around in a daze. I am also starting to feel like I am trying to get a cold or something, sneezing, running nose, watery eyes. Man I feel like I am falling apart!!!

*God I pray for good restful sleep, this is my favorite time of the year and I want to be able to enjoy it and not be on edge because I am so tired*

P.J. Day Here I Come...

2008-12-12T19:47:00.000-08:00

tomorrow is Saturday and I have nothing to do...yes I said I have nothing to do. I am going to sleep as late as I want then get up and maybe just maybe have a P.J. day, that's right a day that I stay in my P.J.s all day long.

I have not had a day to myself in such a long time, I honestly can't remember the last time I had a day with nothing to do and I am going to enjoy it. So from this moment until Sunday morning Cathy is off duty (well if you really really need me I will be here for you but it better be important).

I hope you enjoy your weekend, I am going to enjoy mine!!!!

Teenagers....

2008-12-11T12:43:00.000-08:00

Need I say more!!!!!

Quiet ...please

2008-12-10T19:43:00.000-08:00

I love this time of year but it is always so busy.

It has been a great week, nothing much earth shattering going on, just your typical holiday stuff.

Church tonight was good, everything I had planned worked out just the way I had it planned. I had to put together a lesson for the Rainbow class as well and as far as I know that class went well also. The girls in my class wanted a lesson on Christmas and there was not one in the book so I had to put one together but it was not too hard and it was a little fun as well.

We had choir practice after church tonight for our upcoming Christmas concert and it was a really good one, just makes for an extra long day (like it is not long enough).

But now we are home and I am enjoying the quiet...I love people I really do but there are times I just need to be quiet. I just want to sit and watch T.V. and not talk to anyone, just turn my brain off and veg. But unfortunately now I am starting to fall asleep so I guess I am going to head off to bed now.

*Thank you Lord for all of your blessings, even when I find myself getting caught up in the business of the season you are there to remind me that You are the reason we celebrate*

Good Weekend...

2008-12-07T20:36:00.000-08:00

It is Sunday night and it has been a good and full weekend.

Friday night we had our woman's Christmas party at Pastor Deanna house and it was so much fun. I really needed the time to relax and enjoy the company. We had so much fun, we played a game where people had to tell something about themselves depending on the color of M & M's they had. We learned some pretty interesting things about each other and had a few laughs. PD talked to us about being grateful over everything even the small things, it was something I know but we all need reminding of it from time to time and I really needed it that night. It was a God thing!!!

Saturday I went to the funniest soccer game I have ever been to.Andrew (my 5 year old nephew) had his first game on Saturday and it was so funny to watch them play. Andrew sat on the ball twice then he would pick up the ball and move it to where he wanted it before he would kick it. A couple of times he went to the sidelines and got another ball and would play his own game, he would kick it into the other teams net then cheer for himself for making a goal. I have been to a couple of Tom's games in high school but none where better then this one. I am so glad I was able to go, that is a memory I will treasure forever!!!
That brings us to Sunday... it was a great day. Church was awesome, choir practice was fantastic and after that we headed over to Pastor's to watch a football game. It was busy but a great day all in all.

Now it is bed time, I am so tired, one draw back to the weekend was I went to bed Saturday at 7:00 pm with a horrible headache and sleep till 7:00 am Sunday morning. I felt much better Sunday morning but believe it or not I was still tired. I didn't sleep very well, even though I was in bed I wasn't really sleeping so I am ready for bed. Tomorrow starts a new week and I am ready for it!!!
Love ya

I am sick and tired of you...

2008-12-04T16:31:00.000-08:00

Devil you are not going to get me down no matter how hard you try!!! My God is in control, you are not. I am sick and tired of you trying to beat up on me, I will no longer take it sitting down. With God all things are possible and that is what I am believing with my whole body, mind, and spirit!!!!

Sorry I just had to put satan on notice, I feel much better now!!!!!

Tomorrow is Friday and I have a Christmas party to go to. I am very excited about it and can hardly wait.

I love this time of the year and I AM GOING TO ENJOY IT!!!!!!!!

*Thank you God for all of your grace and love, I will trust you at all times*

Just another Tuesday...

2008-12-02T16:51:00.000-08:00

not too much going on. Just work then home to make dinner and chill for a little before it is time for bed. Then guess what.....I get to get up and do it all over again.

Ashlee stayed home from school sick today but she is feeling better now. Unfortunately she is not alone, everyone is starting to complain about not feeling good, that is never good, once one gets sick everyone gets it. So pray for us, I do not have the time to be sick and neither does Tom.

Well like I said today is Tuesday which also means it is my favorite night of T.V. watching, first NCIS, then the Mentalist and Fringe so I am off to watching my shows, see you tomorrow.

A New Week...

2008-11-30T19:53:00.000-08:00

is about to begin.

Today was a great day at church, we had choir lunch and practice after church and that is always fun, although I did miss my partner in crime (aka Lisa), the Currie family was not at church today, with the wedding and Thanksgiving and family in town they needed a break and I understand that but I still missed them today.

I also taught Sunday school this morning and I had so much fun, I was supposed to have the middler class but I ended up having everyone except the high schooler but I didn't have any problems. Misty asked me how it went and I told her that I never have any problems out of the kids, I think that is because I don't let "kid" behavior bother me, if they want to stand and listen to me that is fine, if they want to tell goofy stories I will give them time to do that too. Sometimes people think kids should behave like miniature adults and that is not fair to the kid, let them be kids, they don't stay that age forever, there is plenty of time to be an adult when that time comes but for now let them be themselves( of course they know that I expect respect and I always get it from every kid that I have ever been in "charge"of).

Tomorrow starts a new week, we are decorating the church tomorrow and that is always fun, we have some ladies coming up to help and I love spending time with the ladies from our church, not many people can say that but I can. I can not think of anyone at church that I don't get along with or that I don't just love to hang with and that is such a blessing to me.

Well it is time for bed, like I said tomorrow starts a new week!!!!