Late Friday

I am finally home and heading off to bed. Kirsti had am away football game tonight so it was really late. We didn't get home until after midnight so I am really tired. The band did great and the football team won, they are undefeated. Well just wanted to drop by and say Hi and let everyone know that we are still hanging on. Tom is supposed to take his tools down to his new job tomorrow, so far all is well. Just keeping the prayers going up, we still have a long way to go and alot to get through but with God's love and grace we will make it through.
We will overcome!!!!

My theme song...

Right now this is the song that I am holding on to. It is helping me to see that with Jesus we can overcome ANYTHING!!

Quiet Tuesday...

Today has been a pretty quiet day, which is good.
I am feeling a little better today too, had a nice evening last night. Tom and I went to the hot tube last night, by ourselves, it was nice. Had time to talk and reconnect. We both have felt a million miles apart but we are better now. Sometimes we get so wrapped up in our own thing that we forget about each other. But like I said we are much better now. Going to have dinner with my sister and her family tonight which is always fun. I love my nephew so much, he is 4 1/2 but he thinks he is about 16 or 17. He is so funny and I love spending time with him.
Thanks for all of your prayers, keep them coming we still need them. It is a day by day process.

Finally...

Well Tom finally heard some news today. It is looking like he will be starting a job on Monday, just not sure what shift yet. We will still have another week with no paycheck though but God will get us through it.

*Thank you Lord for answering our prayers. I know you are in control, sometimes it is just hard for me to let go and let You do your thing but thanks for loving me anyway.*

Masks....

I am so tired of putting on a happy face when I go out!!!


There I said it, I never believed that I really did that until today. I said to myself today,"I am so tired of being nice and happy, I don't want to be any more", of course I didn't say it to anyone just inside my head, but I wanted to.
I have been going through so much with Tom being out of work that I can not put it into words. All I do when we are home is either lay in bed and watch T.V. or go to bed and sleep. I don't want to do anything or really talk to anyone. I try not to be short with the girls but it is so hard. I try to be as nice as I can but it really takes alot, I mean alot, out of me. I am short with Tom and again I try not to be I am just so scared and upset that I don't know what to do. I feel like everything is slipping away and I don't know how to hold onto it.
*Lord help me hold on, I know you are teaching me something through this just please let me hold on long enough to learn it. I am so tired of going through this and I don't know how much longer I can do it. I need you now more then ever!!!*

Ladies Night!!!!

I had a blast tonight with some of the ladies from church. We had ladies night, it was supposed to be dinner and a movie but needless to say we never got around to the movie part. We talked, laughed and just spent time with old friends and made some new ones. I really really needed this after the week I have had, it felt good to laugh.

PD this was an absolute hit, we must do it again!!!

Waiting.....

why do we have to wait, that is one of the hardest things for me. Maybe that is why God is making me wait right now. Pray for strength and patience as I wait on the Lord.