Ready for bed

Today was a good day but a very tiring day. Work was pretty good, Missionettes was actually good tonight. We are doing a unit on camping and tonight we talked about building fires and how to make them. We went outside and got all of the stuff to make a fire then we put it all together in the class, no we didn't lite them but the girls got to pick which kind of fire to make then they had to explain the process. They seemed to have a good time tonight. We stayed a little late so Kirsti could practice her solo for Fine Arts this weekend. She is really down on herself, she doesn't think she is good enough, but she will work through it and do great. Then we came home, got the kids baths and put in bed and now I am winding down.

Well there you have it, all the excitement of my day. Now it is bed time, got to do it all again tomorrow!!

Food for thought...

Today I was reading one of my favorite blogs and she was talking about the responses we get from people and how we deal with them and it got me to thinking.
If you would of ask me 5 years ago if I could deal with the responses I got from people it would have been a big fat NO.
A few years ago I was happy to stay in the background and just slide through life unnoticed. I never wanted to put myself out there because I was afraid of what people would say about me or heaven forbid what they would think of me. I lived my life for everyone around me because I was afraid of the responses I would get if tried to step out and do anything, so needless to say I was pretty much miserable all the time. Sure I put on the happy face and went along with the flow but I was never really happy.
But a few years ago something happened. I can't tell you exactly what it was but I started to step out a little more and more. Then before I knew it I was stepping out and taking charge of aspects of my life that for so long I let someone else dictate to me. I still sometimes have the fear of the responses that I will get from others but I now have the confidence to deal with it. I do not take it so personally because I know who I am in God and what He has called me to do. There are times when I get ahead of God and step out before Him and when that happens I have to humble myself and ask the Lord to forgive me then face the "responses" I get for the mistakes I have made but then I move on, I don't dwell on it.
Well that is the way I have learned to deal with the responses from those around me.
How about you?

Why??

Why is it that every time I think I have things figured out something happens to make me rethink my decision?
I know all of the cliches, "it is just the devil trying to make you doubt yourself" or "trust God, he will lead you". And I know all of that and I believe them but sometimes I just get so tired of the uphill battle. Why does the next level have to be so hard to get to? I think "is it really worth this, why can't I just stay in my happy little comfortable place and just slide by?" As you can probably tell, I had a pretty hard night. Things just didn't work out the why I thought, things I thought would work out good didn't, ideas just didn't work as planned. Just ended up leaving, tired, disappointed and ready to run away.
I think I just need a hot bath and a good nights sleep. Just needed to vent and get it off my chest.
Just a side note, I do trust God and I know the path he has revealed to me is the right one, I just get tired of fighting for it. And yes, I know in the end it will all be worth it!!

Lord, give me the endurance I need to come through this on the other side a better person, and help me to trust you completely with everything. Give me the strength to fight for what you have for me and the faith to trust that this is the destiny you have laid out for me.

Early start but relaxing ending

I always look forward to Saturdays as a day to sleep in and catch up on some work around the house but that did not happen today.
Kirsti had a band thing down at the St. Pete Times Forum this morning and she had to be there by 7:45am , yes I said am on a Saturday. So the first part of my plan for my Saturday did not happen. It was alot of fun though, I love to watch her march with the band, she just loves it and does such a great job. I am so proud of her, she has had a really good couple of weeks, she has been easy to get along with and has not had attitude about things(besides normal teenage stuff).
So after the band thing was over Kirsti had to go to work with my dad so that left just me, Tom and Ashlee,(Britney was with my sister). We don't get time alone with Ashlee much and unfortunately she was not feeling good, even had a slight temperature so we went to lunch then came home and took a nap, a 3 hour nap that is. Boy did it feel good. I have been sleeping alot better since we have been on the fast, the only thing is I feel like I can't get enough sleep, I am always tired, so a nap was really nice.
After we got up we watched a couple of movies and enjoyed the sounds of the rain. I love the rain especially if I don't have to go anywhere.
We also had the 24 hour prayer shifts for church this weekend. I had it for 30 minutes form 7:30 till 8:00. I have to admit every time I sign up to do a shift I am always afraid I will not have "enough" to say but it always amazes me at how the time just flies, before I knew it it was over and I thought "wow that went really fast". I never have a problem praying but sometimes when I have to pray for a certain amount of time it makes me nervous. Silly right?
But God is good and I am looking forward to church tomorrow, it should be good and I can't wait to see what God has in store for us.
Love Ya