Just the way I have been feeling lately...

Things aren’t always what they seem, you’re only seeing part of me, there’s more than you could ever know, Behind the scenes, I’m incomplete and I’m undone, but I suppose like everyone, there’s so much more that’s going on, Behind the scenes

Sometimes I can’t see anything through the dark surrounding me and at times I’m unsure about the ground beneath my feet if it’s safe and sound

When it’s hard to find hope in the unseen I have peace in knowing it will find me

Behind The Scenes - Francesca Battistelli

How...

do you get respect out of a teenager? No really I want to know... every time I turn around my child is being sooooooo disrespectful and it is driving me crazy.

She is doing well in school but now her mouth is going none stop and she can be so ugly. I guess we can't have good grades and respect...that would be just way too much to ask!!!

Pastor Deanna's prayer was to be able to get Jordan to 18 safe and sound...I just want to get her to 18 in one piece... her dad is going to rip her in two if she doesn't get her mouth in check!!!!

Ugh teenagers... I heard a comedian say that he thinks when satan was kick out of heaven he was a 15 year old rebellious teenager. You know what, think about it and it makes sense... he wouldn't listen, he thought he knew everything and he even thought he knew MORE then the Father ;) (just a little humor because if I can't laugh I will go insane!!)

But really if you have any ideas about the respect thing please let me know... I am at the end of my rope and if things don't change I may hang her with it!!!!

Great Sunday...

church was great, choir lunch was great, choir practice was great, and the best of all when I got home I took a nap (a 2 and 1/2 hour nap)!!!!!!!!

So in one word my Sunday was...

GREAT!!!!!!

*Thank you Lord for showing up in a big way today...I needed it!!! *

Thursday Evening...

was horrible!!!!

Trust...

In Life Coaching this year one of the things we were assigned to do was to choose a "word of the year", something that we wanted to work on in our lives. I chose Trust...not only for trust in God but for trust in myself.

I will try to explain:
I have always doubted myself, I doubt my abilities, I doubt my gifts, I doubt that what I have to offer anyone would want, I doubt my abilities as a parent, sometimes I even doubt that I actually heard from God.This is something that has been a big problem for me and I made up my mind that this is the year that I was going to beat it. And of course as soon as you make up your mind to do something positive the devil tries to fight it!!!!
It is an uphill battle but one that I know I will win!!!!!

a person on whom or thing on which one relies: God is my trust.

Just a reminder...

Sometimes we can get so wrapped up in life that we forget that...
"Everything rides on hope"

Everything rides on hope now
Everything rides on faith somehow
When the world has broken me down
Your love sets me free

Wow...

Yes, God will raise up a faraway nation against you, swooping down on you like an eagle, a nation whose language you can't understand, a mean-faced people, cruel to grandmothers and babies alike. They'll ravage the young of your animals and the crops from your fields until you're destroyed. They'll leave nothing behind: no grain, no wine, no oil, no calves, no lambs—and finally, no you. They'll lay siege to you while you're huddled behind your town gates. They'll knock those high, proud walls flat, those walls behind which you felt so safe. They'll lay siege to your fortified cities all over the country, this country that God, your God, has given you.- Deuteronomy 28:48-52

This was in my bible reading for today and wow!!
This is where Moses is talking to the children of Israel about the promise land and what would happen to them if they did not keep God's commandments.

Is it just me or does this sounds exactly like what we are living through right now!!!